MAD

MAD!!! that's what i am right now SOOOO MAD why? why you ask, for no other reason than hormones (and a slight lack of sleep but that's negligible).  That stupid, should be a four letter word, word.  Those stupids things are making me take everything personally, including every tiny annoying thing that the kids do today, even the fact that I can't get a hold of a family member (although I only left a message this morning and obviously if she was out for the day, she still wouldn't be home!).   GRRRR then my lovely well meaning, fantastic husband comes home (exert: despite how lovely he is, hormones make me say that he just got home from an easy day of work, with 4-5 hrs spent travelling, and he enjoyed a work lunch at a restaurant an hour before dinner) and asks me irritating questions like "how was your day?" and, with the kids hanging of him, "what can I do to help?".  These questions drive me crazy! Obviously my day sucked and is still sucking... AND obviously you can go freaking play with the kids, why do I need to even tell you that!!!  bah anyway I had way more cooler things to write about but no drive until I got sooo mad and then I was too mad to write about anything else...

Some other topics that I may get to writing about eventually are: vegetables for a local farm, finding cancer free (ahem I mean without possible carcinogens) soaps, lotions, detergents, and foods.  (not in that order).  SO in the event anyone is looking at this then toss a comment up because I would be WAY more likely to actually update if I thought anyone else was reading this :)

Gardening?

I think I need to garden properly this year... I have had some sort of garden with veggies or herbs for at least 5 yrs except last year, we paid for sod in or back yard (long story) and I didn't plan a place for a garden and didn't want to rip up sod!!  so I have garden beds along both sides of my house, one is vacant but fairly shady and one is planted with various plants and  roses... I am hoping I can come up with veggies that will grow in the shady location and in and around the other plants and roses... Also I have a super hot front entrance to my house that I should be able to grow tomatoes and strawberries in IF the deer don't eat them... 
Anyone have any ideas?  Every time I try to look it up I get overwhelmed.  I need some one to make me a schedule of what to plant what weeks and where!  If nothing else I should be able to do potatoes, and peas and beans...  I am going to have to go outside during the day and see how much sun the other side of the house gets I guess.

Okay well here's to growing my own food on my own property.
My other option is to 'borrow' property from my mom but I haven't asked her yet..

Personalities

Okay So turns out I have multiple personalities... kind of.  I am polite when with husbands work personnel (this is akin to 'on your best behaviour' when I was a kid), I am outgoing with my friends, I am bland when meeting other mommies, and surface friendly when meeting other peoples friends... Facebook has ruined this for me... I have friends on my page who are work colleagues, high school friends, high school aged cousins, real friends and people whose lives I like to spy on.  I don't want all these people to know every aspect of my life, and changing every comment to appeal to a certain audience is not going to happen.  So I have created an alternate alias that is unknown to anyone except me, my husband, and sister (who opened the alias with me to spy on people).
  This way I can buy things, post comments on dangerous topics without feeling like my friends will hate me, and barter with people who work for my husband without them knowing that they are essentially selling to their boss :) I understand that I should supposedly be ok with who I am and if my friends don't like me fine.  However I am a strong, opinionated, intelligent, and well educated (despite the lack of English language abilities) woman and my friends are the same.  I am fine with me but I prefer to not offend people, or get into confrontations with people that will never end well.  I absolutely understand people have their own opinions, beliefs or choices... I Totally object to people that won't allow a difference of opinion, belief, or choice to exist.  I am pro choice, I have no religion and can't fathom believing in an almighty God or that there is only one... But those topics have a lot of very strong arguments for all sides and if a person can't say.. "well I don't agree but that's okay"  Then I would rather avoid the conflict altogether....  So I refrain from giving my opinion in a lot of matters which I feel strongly about because of the damn ticker that will rat on me to my family members, or mother friends who thinks its fine to drink during play group...

my first post

Hi,  I will warn you now, I have terrible grammar and I haven't decided if I care enough to try to fix it for those reading this blog.  I mostly try to write with appropriate grammar when posting on other public forums so people don't assume I am an idiot with poor grammar skills and disregard my comment.  I am NOT an idiot, and I know I have terrible grammar (and sometimes spelling) I just don't care.  I am very impatient and don't want to take the time to spell check/ look up where the stupid comma goes.  And (see the bad grammar there) I am hilarious, and if I take the time to make sure my hilarious comments are grammatically correct, they are so not funny anymore.

  I have no idea what I am going to use this blog for or if I will ever write here again but it seems like a good idea for now.  I think at the end I am supposed to ask some inane question to get you folks to leave a comment and 'share' your lives with me..but really I don't care.  I will delete your comments if they're mean and pretend I have no idea what you are talking about if you bring it up again...

When I was little I wanted to buy an island and make it a new country so I could be Queen and rule ALL... clearly this didn't happen but instead I went to school, got married, had kids, and rule my home :)
please note the fish to the right,  they are cute and weird...